Ultimate dread

I just realised that today is the first day in over a month that has been pain free. And tomorrow, I get chemo AND a whole world of vein/tube/needle horribleness. Cruel cruel disease, a taste of freedom and then bang, right back to pain. Booooo for cancer.

Not feeling too optimistic right now. Id give away Louie for this to be over. Ok that's a lie, but I'd give Nick ;) I wonder will it ever become the norm to induce coma in cancer patients and just wake them up when chemo is finished. I'd happily sign up for a 6 month nap.

There was a little bald girl with a teddy getting scanned with me today. Around 7 years old. Life isn't fair sometimes. She was still smiling though. Maybe us cancer patients are like the Irish football fans, we know the situation is dire, but we keep on singing because life's no fun if you dwell on the negative. Just keep swimming? Naaah, just keep singing, just keep singing....