Complete Remission!!!

In the words of the oncologist, I have just won the cancer lottery. My PET/CT shows that I am in complete remission with no evidence of disease 2 months earlier than expected. She just wants to clear it with my head consultant but it looks like I'll have to do a few more 'mop up' chemos to make sure there are no more danger cells lurking that were too small for the scan to pick up and I'll be done at the end of next month.

This means a) obviously, I am responsive to treatment which was the biggest concern b) I am HIGHLY responsive to treatment given how fast it was killed which puts me in the category of people who are least likely to relapse in the future. This is certainly not to say I wont relapse, but I have a good shot at never having pacman rear his ugly yellow head again.

I am torn between feelings of relief, shock, joy, fear.. I don't know. I'm numb. It'll sink in eventually. I think I need a lie down.....

It's not over yet, but the finish line just got moved infinitely closer. Relief is.....